Why do I feel repulsed by people while I also feel miserable in my solitude ?

..This is a choice that you are making for a reason that only you know..Is it possible that you have been seriously hurt by someone and now you cannot get past the pain and hurt of it. If this is the case it may be time to think about talking it over with someone you trust and/or a counsellor, because if you keep going like this it will manifest into something more serious and you may want to bury it more through negative behaviours..Going through any hurt alone never works out for anyone..Try and muster up a little confidence and then talk with someone who will just listen to you and not p judgement or criticize or tell you what they think is best for you, unless of course you ask for their opinion...You could also do some journaling which does get a lot of stuff out of our heads and onto paper, where it will then lose power and won't become bigger than it really is..This is a very good way to get to the core of the problem...Do take care..